Slimming Down (page 2 of
run extremely enjoyable and lots of cars passed by me, but I don't think
anyone really suspected anything. Hopefully people are getting used to
seeing my jogging along some of these highways. I certainly hope so.
The main issue with this run besides getting some exercise was to check
the combination of my bra and Under Armour top, and I'm happy to report
that the Olga racerback bra worked perfectly with this top. I wasn't
worried about my breasts at all during the run, and unlike my soft cup
bra the last time I ran, the firm racerback straps kept everything in
place to my great satisfaction.
When I returned home from my run, it was time to step on the scale, and
while I like to completely disrobe when I weigh myself, when I am in
girl mode I always keep my panties and pantyhose on because I love to
see my pretty toes through nylons standing on the bathroom scale. I had
my cell phone ready to record the moment, and when the scale made its
calculation, it returned a number that I haven't seen since the
mid-1990's. I had finally broken the 160 lb barrier!!
Now, after my run, I had to get re-hydrated and then eat breakfast, and
so that would surely take my weight back up several pounds, but I have
not seen "159" on the scale in over twenty years. I was ecstatic, and I
had to step off the scale and then back on one more time just to
confirm. Yes, I had dropped down into the 159 range. Hopefully you
can imagine how that makes a girl like me feel, but it's been a long
journey to get to this point.
this year in May, I went to Kohl's one morning to try on some sports
bras, and frankly, the pictures really depressed me. I mean, I was able
to choose three or four that looked okay to present to everyone in my
diary, but I was horrified at my body. All of the pictures I posted had
me covering up my tummy with both arms holding my cell phone down low
near my waist, and even the pictures where I was wearing my regular
outfit did not look good.
The pictures where my arms were away from my waist horrified me, and
they provided me the inspiration to get in proper shape and lose weight
properly with regular exercise and a proper diet instead of my old
method of just starving myself. I am going to bite the bullet bra
and finally post one of those pictures where my tummy is revealed just
so you can get a before and after view. Look at my figure there at
right and then scroll back up to the picture at the top of this page to
see me now. There is no way that I could have rocked the Under
Armour top back in May, but it feels great on me now!!
Back when I tried on those sports bras at Kohl's, I weighed somewhere
around 173 pounds, so over the last half year, I've managed to shed over
10 pounds with most of it melting off of my tummy. You cannot believe
the confidence this has given me, and that coupled with my new-found
voice has really pushed me to new heights. I really feel fearless these
days when going out, and most of the time I feel as if I can conquer the
And the irony of all this? If I wasn't transgender and didn't feel like
a girl inside, I doubt I would care a lick about my weight and my
appearance and overall health, but the girl is there, and she
does drive my behavior and my thinking, and so I'm eternally
grateful to that girl inside who has propelled me to these new heights
the last six months.